May I see you out?
I can’t remember the last time I was this busy! While I tend to do my best work when I am overburdened and scheduled to the max, I can’t help but ask myself if I’m running from something or trying too hard. I have to say that all of these things have flowed so naturally and easily that I didn’t really question them until my mentor pointed out how attractive it is for the world to bring so many things to me… rather than allow the world to unfold for me.
Tripping into Clinical Internship...
Last week was rough finding time for all of my passion projects… as in I didn’t find as much as I needed. I officially started as a fourth-year naturopathic medical student, which means I began my internship. Unlike medical doctors who get four years of medical training and then multiple years of residency (the first of which is known as their internship year), we get three years of medical training and then a year of internship, all within the context of our four-year doctorate level of education.
The intern year for naturopaths is where we get to see patients and work under licensed naturopathic doctors and learn through hands-on experience. It’s also known as our clinical year, which is meant to prepare us for working as independent, licensed naturopathic doctors within a year and a half’s time.
WILY... May is Here!
As I reflected upon the idea of usefulness being found in uselessness, I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed by a recurring, negative, emotional experience I have had throughout my life. It is one centered around this idea of being useless and how that is tied to shame and guilt. There was this single moment, an instant, where I felt this sudden wave of relief. It was as if I was permitted to extend myself grace for all of those moments I had beaten myself up about feeling useless. I must admit, the moment was short, but recalling it now, I can almost feel what I felt at that moment. This inner knowing that being useless is in fact needed for being useful.
How to Start a Professional Podcast from Scratch...
I had absolutely no idea where to start. I had no background in any type of computer or audio work, and frankly, I find even writing this blog overwhelming.
I knew I needed a computer, microphone, some editing software, some music… and a whole lotta creativity, time and understanding of the interwebs. HELLOOOOO, quarantine!!!!
I also knew that if I came out of quarantine without learning a new skill or starting this thing I’ve been talking about starting, that I wouldn’t forgive myself.
Long time coming.
I have come to believe this has been my destiny. To be here pursuing this degree at this time when I have never been more clear with who I am and what I have to offer. That little ego of mine would rather have me locked in a room working towards a perfection that would have made me miserable. Instead, I have been let free and held accountable to reach my potential.
A Mainstream Mission
Finding Healthfulness is the platform I have today to start connecting with and inspiring people to ask more questions about their health and wellness. As a certified health coach and research-reading enthusiast, I promise to challenge everyday decisions and habits in ways that are supportive and safe. Coming from a place of love and gratitude.