Making videos, finding my voice, and letting go of perfect

I’ve been making videos and having fun! And, maybe most surprisingly, enjoying not being perfect.

On video-making

As I look for more ways to reach people as a naturopathic doctor, it felt natural to turn to video. Natural, but not easy. The idea of putting myself out there has felt daunting for the past decade.

Now, video-editing tools have made it possible for someone like me to create something I’m genuinely excited to share. Something I couldn’t have imagined making on my own.

But the bigger change hasn’t been the technology. It’s giving myself permission to create without needing everything to be perfect.

Because that fear has kept me quiet. I’ve been so afraid of criticism or saying something wrong that I’ve barely let myself use my voice online.

In person, y’all know it’s different! ;)

What has kept me from creating

I take the responsibility of sharing health information seriously. I want what I share to be accurate, thoughtful, and useful.

But somewhere along the way, caring about getting things right became feeling like I could never get anything wrong.

Those aren’t the same thing.

I can take accuracy seriously without expecting every sentence, every video, and every delivery to be flawless. I can prepare carefully, acknowledge what I don’t know, and correct something when it needs correcting.

I can keep learning without staying silent.

What my relationships have taught me

I see this in my work with patients, too.

Sometimes I don’t explain something as clearly as I intended. Sometimes I misunderstand what someone needs in a moment. Sometimes my words don’t land the way I hoped.

When someone tells me, I have an opportunity to listen, apologize when needed, and adjust.

To those who have shared that feedback with me: thank you. You’ve helped me become a more thoughtful provider for you and for the people I care for after you.

Those close to me know I take these moments to heart. I replay the words I could have chosen differently and the moments when I could have listened more closely. I take none of it lightly.

And when someone continues to trust me with their care, I don’t take that for granted.

These relationships remind me that being caring and capable doesn’t require being flawless. It requires being willing to listen, take responsibility, and grow.

That’s what I’m trying to bring into these videos, too: care, curiosity, and a willingness to keep learning.

I am not perfect, yet I am enough.

May I see you out?

May I see you out?

I can’t remember the last time I was this busy! While I tend to do my best work when I am overburdened and scheduled to the max, I can’t help but ask myself if I’m running from something or trying too hard. I have to say that all of these things have flowed so naturally and easily that I didn’t really question them until my mentor pointed out how attractive it is for the world to bring so many things to me… rather than allow the world to unfold for me.

What I learned yesterday... Final April Edition

What I learned yesterday... Final April Edition

Continuing from last week’s post, I wanted to let you know how the rest of my Texan travels went. Initially, I found myself very conflicted and uncomfortable with being back in Texas. Being surrounded by people who didn’t share common interests or ideals was proving to be very difficult for me. I struggled to stay pleasant and made it difficult for people to want to be around me.

I was able to connect with a friend and colleague who shared some insight with me that shifted my viewpoint and the way I interacted with my environment for the rest of the trip. This allowed me to settle in and truly enjoy the rest of my time in Texas. Read more about this conversation below…

1/30th of the way there

1/30th of the way there

As I sit here anxiously awaiting dinner time, I'm asking myself, "Why on earth did I sign up for a 30-day clean eating challenge? Why am I doing this as a plant-based athlete?" I’m not unhappy with my weight. I feel great. And I’ve never loved myself more than I do now (though this doesn’t say much considering where I’m coming from-- more on this some other time).

Meditation: What's all the Fuss About

Meditation: What's all the Fuss About

Welcome to my first Vlog! After a brief introduction from this quirky face, we'll launch into some of the latest research on the benefits of meditation. Hopefully a piece of it will resonate with you to inspire you to start a meditative practice of your own and share in this journey with me!

Coaching Series: Facing the Marathon

Coaching Series: Facing the Marathon

Now, the marathon. I know what you are thinking:

  1. I can’t do it. 
  2. Humans aren’t supposed to run that far. 
  3. I don’t want to hurt myself.

All of these thoughts are valid concerns and very real considerations when deciding to take on training for a marathon. Let’s break it down by each statement.

Food for Thought Series: A Flex Lifestyle

Food for Thought Series: A Flex Lifestyle

Nobody (initially) likes the idea of limiting the intake of certain delicious foods. You work hard and deserve to indulge in the foods on your plate; however, if you are wanting to change your habits to achieve a happier and healthier you consider indulging oven-baked potato wedges instead of duck fat french fries, or switch from the chocolate mousse cake to the cacao-banana smoothie; you have the power. Within a matter of weeks, your body won’t want the fried foods or triple-cream cheese. Your body will crave the tart greens and sweet fruits, and your brain with new-found willpower will be there as your body guard when temptations arise.

A Mainstream Mission

A Mainstream Mission

Finding Healthfulness is the platform I have today to start connecting with and inspiring people to ask more questions about their health and wellness.  As a certified health coach and research-reading enthusiast, I promise to challenge everyday decisions and habits in ways that are supportive and safe.  Coming from a place of love and gratitude.